I’m only trying my best in every good thing I do, even when it doesn’t seem like it.
Either I get disappointed in myself, in other people, or just fucking pissed off.
It’s harder than you think. How are you supposed to know something you’ve only seen/read/observed/heard but not tasted? Yeah, people have got their own troubles and struggles, but it doesn’t mean that the magnitude of theirs is the same. I myself know and understand that mine is still not so big, so I keep my own pains to myself and try my best to cheer people up so that it would cheer me up. I try not to be so self-centered. Even if I can’t do that, I simply try my best to get myself out of this hellhole I’ve put myself in by simply getting through everyday.
“I think you’re enjoying the attention you’re getting. You enjoy pissing people off.”
For your information, attention AND getting the bad vibes out of other people are the things I am strongly against. Dude, like you, I only have good intentions. I don’t intentionally do the wrong things. Forgive me if I make mistakes or give the wrong message, but I’m only human. Correct me if I’m wrong, but if you think you’re so wise, you’ve still got a lot to learn, like me. Please understand that you’re not right all the time.
Has it ever occurred to you that, like you, I feel like screaming in frustration and with all other mixed emotions at least every hour of the day? (Well technically, except when I’m sleeping.) I can’t understand myself nor do I understand other people, so you can’t just keep pointing fingers and think you completely understand me. It’s like I say this over and over again. You don’t see me criticizing other people because I understand the fact that no matter how close I am to them, I may not know them/what they go through every day. At all. No matter how ignorant/naive they are.
But what other people think is not supposed to be my problem. So I’m gonna let it go. I’ve got more important things to do.
It’s true when they say that a home is only a house when the feeling isn’t there.
Life.
